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What if tomorrow never comes?. A true story!!!
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What if tomorrow never comes?. A true story!!! If tomorrow never comes………………This is a real true story about me. but is very long. I used to date a very loving, caring and handsome military guy; we dated for about 2 years. He was I think my first true love, we were both young, he was station here at Quantico Marine Base, he was out with two other marines when I first met him, got my number, he kept calling me after that, (no much text back them). Finally we ended up hanging out and loving each other. One day he said, Thalia, I have to leave on Monday, I am being deploy, and they just told me today that I got to go. We were both kind of expecting that but it was still hard on both, we decided to enjoy that weekend to the max before Monday. We got a hotel room for Friday night, Saturday, all the way to Sunday at noon. We were just going to stay there and enjoy each other those nights. He had ask me to bring a camera with me to the club that Friday night, so we can get some pictures and video together, I ended up forgetting the cam because I was running late to meet him, he was sad, but I said, don’t worry about it, we still have tomorrow, Saturday, we had dinner reservations at a nice restaurant for that night and then drinks, he said, I know, but I was hoping to get some pictures of us tonight. Anyways, as Friday night ended, we went back to our hotel room, we were talking, both laying across the bed looking up to the ceiling and holding hands, with clothes on, just talking about us, how or when we met, the good moments we have had so far, the funny/crazy things we done together, our future plans, him leaving, and me not knowing when I was going to see him again, him saying, don’t worry, I will come back, I will always be with you, regardless, I know you will be fine with me or without, if for wherever reason I don’t come back, just keep going, don’t worry about me, I told him not to talk about that or like that, then we both fell asleep in that position. Next day, Saturday morning, we over slept, I was rushing to get to work, and he was rushing to get back to the base, in the madness, all we did was a quick kiss and hug, and a I will see you tonight my love, I went to work, got home from work and decided I was going to take a quick nap, I was tired from the lack of sleep the night before, besides, we had plans for that night too, fell asleep, I even fail to hear the phone ring, when I woke up, check my messages, had a miss called from him, he said, Thalia, this is Jason, I am so sorry, but they actually change my deployment day to today, they are taking me to the airport in 20 minutes, I am not going to be able to see you tonight, the hotel is all paid off thru Sunday, I have a few items of clothing there, please pick them up and save them for me, will call you as soon I as I get there and get settle. Love you. I heard the message and tears were in my eyes, I was in denial, I want it to believe that it was one of his pranks, that he was going to be there for dinner, at least that is what I wanted to believe or see, I did not cancel dinner reservations, got ready, got my camera and got on the way. I was there 30 mins early, I kept looking to the entrance, nothing, 10 mins till meeting time, nothing still, an hour after, and I was still seating there hoping to see him walk in, but no, then I moved to the bar area, were we will usually hang out, I need it to get drunk that night, I kept breaking out crying for no reason, kept looking to the entrance all night, I was hoping to see him come in with his bright smile, saying everything was a joke. Any guy that would say hello to me, I would look at him like, how dare you talk to me; I kept regretting not having those pictures from the night before, I didn’t had anything from that night but memories, and the tomorrow was here but He wasn’t, days later I heard from him, we were talking every week from that point on, he will always call me, but one weekend nothing, no call, I figure the poor guy is in the field, to just give time and wait, another week and nothing. Finally I call the camp or base where he was in the middle east, had a number he has giving me, that is when I learned that he had been killed in combat, I felt paralyzed so did my heart, they ask me who I was to him, I said his gf, person said, I am sorry but we can’t give you any more details cause you are not family member. Are you Thalia? I said yes, person went on to say they had found a picture of me on him, I ask them to please put the picture in his pocket, later heard from his ex-roommate here in the base, that he was buried in Texas, but of course, I was not there, I didn’t even know his family and didn’t even know where he was going to be buried. He was originally from TX, I was in VA. all I had was a picture of his funeral that his roommate sent me. I was sad for not being there for him. But I did my own personal good bye to him, cause I had no closure and I was suffering, finally one day I put an empty chair in front of me, pretend he was there listening, and said, Jason, wherever you are, I hope you have an arm around to keep you warm and to comfort you. You know I love you with everything I have, I want to thank you for sharing the last 2 years of your life with me, you were a blessing in my life, Thank you for letting me be a part of your life, it was a true honor for me, you will always be my person, you will always be in my heart until the end of my days, I know one day, I will see you again, please reserve a seat for me. Love you!!! That night we kept talking about tomorrow, didn’t enjoy the today, therefore, I never got to hug him again, didn’t even had time to enjoyed our very last kiss, didn’t get the pictures or video, cause I was counting on tomorrow, I still have his shirt, pair of pants, pair of socks, a broken white gold necklace (I accidently broke his necklace that Friday night and he had left it on the night stand and forgot about it) founded when I pick up his clothes, I also have a quarter inside a dollar, I am not sure how he did that, but he made it for me for good luck that last night that we were together. But tomorrow never did come for us again. So I am still holding on to the memories and to those few items as he requested to save them for him. That is why I am a strong believer on living today, say I love you to those special people in your life, take the time or make the time to be with those you love, don’t take anyone you love in your life for granted, and don’t take today for granted. Cause what if tomorrow never comes? Sorry, about the LONG sob story, but need it to share this, it has been 17 years to the date, we actually met on a valentine’s day, and I still say thank you for the great memories to him. I am dating now days, very happy again, but he still there somewhere in my heart, I have a great wonderful bf, they are so much similar in so many ways, my bf knows our story. And wherever he is, I think Jason approves of me and James being together. Because he is also making me happy and loving me as he one day did. Leaving a few pics of the items, the lucky dollar he gave me, his still broken necklace, (don't wanna fix it) wanna keep the way he left it. and one picture that I always keep in his memory.   |
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I'm glad you're happy again, but also that, even if it was by a very hard way, like it happened to me, you do know now that tomorrow never comes!   WITHOUT PASSION LIFE IS NOTHING
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I'm glad you're happy again, but also that, even if it was by a very hard way, like it happened to me, you do know now that tomorrow never comes! And yes, we gotta learn and live today, I am thankful that I am as happy today as I was with him one day.
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Touching story, but he does live on in your heart, i believe you will meet again for life is but a journey on many boats. He may not be traveling with you on your boat anymore, but the destination remains the same. Good luck
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Having gone through something similar, although in my case we knew the outcome was coming and I would not wish it on anyone because it is a journey getting through it and dealing with so many different emotions and feelings in the process. In the end like you I hope anyone that goes through any type of loss can take some very positive things from it. I know with myself it was hard for a long time but in the end I ended up learning so much about life, love and people and I know I'm a much better person for it. Thanks for sharing I know its never easy especially when you put it into written words. "A couple bucks will get you on the subway, but garlic will get you a seat."
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Having gone through something similar, although in my case we knew the outcome was coming and I would not wish it on anyone because it is a journey getting through it and dealing with so many different emotions and feelings in the process. In the end like you I hope anyone that goes through any type of loss can take some very positive things from it. I know with myself it was hard for a long time but in the end I ended up learning so much about life, love and people and I know I'm a much better person for it. Thanks for sharing I know its never easy especially when you put it into written words.
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Thank you Gables!!!
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2/16/2016 4:10 pm |
So sad for you, but also happy that you have been able to move on and find love again.
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Words well written!!! Enjoy ever moment in life!!!!!!!
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No problem, let me tell you this, the other day I went to see the movie 13 hours, I was there with my bf, that movie brought back memories to me, I was literally crying during the movie, I had him in my mind all along, when we got out, my bf drove me home, we stayed in his car talking outside, we talk about it, he knew why I was crying, we were there talking until around 2am, it made feel so much better after I talk to him, I told him the things that they both had in common, like not knowing how to dance haha, he laugh. and some people as you said, don't even think about all the falling military souls, they are more preoccupied about some celebrity news, I do, cause that touched my life and my heart forever. I still wonder what would had been. we had true love for each other. I can't explain it. when I lost him, I was lost for awhile, I was reckless, I was drinking, I was empty. I was about to lose my life as well cause of the way I was living. but thanks God I got back on track, I knew he would not want to see me suffering like that or living like that, and that is when I went back to be me again. he might not had meant much to others, but to me, he meant the world.
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I enjoyed the read!
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So sad for you, but also happy that you have been able to move on and find love again.
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Words well written!!! Enjoy ever moment in life!!!!!!!
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Thank very much, he was an special man, the mutual love was there, I know he loved his country and that is why he did it, I remember asking him a few times, if he was scare to go, he said sometimes he was, but that you could not show that, you just gotta go and fight it. and you know what, for me, the national anthem has never been the same when I listening after he died. I usually want to cry when I hear it. I know he did it cause he had no choice, besides, he loved his country and the military, too bad that more people don't value them as much as they value their country. what happen to him, touched my heart and change my life forever, cause I would never know what would of had been. I had love for that man, we loved each other in every way possible, we were always together, we were meant for each other, my only re great, was not accepting his very first invitation, I should have, cause we would of had more days or time together, he change my life in those 2 years, he rescue me, I mean it, he did. and for that, I will always be grateful, for some people he probably didn't meant much, but for me, he meant everything I had. I still remember him, I still carry with me those few items that he had ask me to save for him. it's only fair to him, some days I look at them, or hold them close to me and just close my eyes. I have been bless, cause I am now smiling again, have someone else who is so similar to him. is like if he sent him to me. they are just so so similar, is even scary. they do pretty much the same things and I am not lying about that. I have even mention it to my current bf. so many coincidences as well. there are things in life that we can't explain. but they are there.
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This story made me tears... For sure it was hard to make a closure.
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love the crazy and sad story
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Memories Gone, But Not Forgotten. It is Awesome that you have been able to move on in your life and what you said about living in the moment in the here and now appreciating the people in your life spending time with them and not taking anything or anyone for granted. do you believe that everything happens for a reason in your life? if you do I believe because of this experience you have become and will continue to be a stronger person and shine with your true colours in everything you do.
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Memories Gone, But Not Forgotten. It is Awesome that you have been able to move on in your life and what you said about living in the moment in the here and now appreciating the people in your life spending time with them and not taking anything or anyone for granted. do you believe that everything happens for a reason in your life? if you do I believe because of this experience you have become and will continue to be a stronger person and shine with your true colours in everything you do.
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A very literate farewell essay, detailed, graphic, and touching. how odd destiny took you apart, even two days before he actually flew abroad. My condolences! If America minded his own bussiness, we all would be much happier. Good luck with james, and stay fidel to him, men respect it.
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Great story. Kisses
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GOOD
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