When to give up on people
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Posted:May 24, 2022 9:21 pm
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 10:45 am
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"Sometime you need to give up on people not because you don't care but because they don't care"
This resonated with me. Has happened so much lately to me with so many people.
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Night at the Stripper.
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Posted:May 6, 2022 10:48 pm
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 10:45 am
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I was 19 and it was February and a friend's birthday. He wanted to go to the strippers and while that's ok it's not really my thing. I don't mind but over paying for beer to watch an woman dance on a stage that you'll never have chance with just not my thing. Except this time, I'm sitting there nursing a beer and my friend really drunk. The last stripper had left the stage about 15 minutes. She came back down with the next stripper. I notice her checking me out as she goes past to get drink.
She come over pulls up a chair beside me with a roll of loonies, Canada's one dollar coin. We talk and she asks me help her tip her friend on stage. She moves in closer snuggling up to me. We talk and toss the coins to her friend but we really aren't looking at her. She had this way of making eye contact so close. After a few song her friend is done and she tells me she has to go up her room. She gently takes my hand invitingly and go with her and I go up to her room holding her hand the entire way.
I'll leave the rest to your imagination.
That's the one and only time that's ever happened to me.
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My first experience wth a
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Posted:May 5, 2022 7:45 pm
Last Updated:May 5, 2022 7:51 pm
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Trying think what write about.
How about my first experience with a . I grew up on a farm. town and city life. I get this job in Kelowna BC. Employer for move me their and my first two months accommodation. was great, summer time and lots of stuff do. One evening I leave my place and drive down a main road then stop at red light. This woman just get into my car. Very woman, not wearing much at all. I'm like "Ok, this is cool", the light turn green and I driving. She's making talk then asks want company this evening. So me I'm "Yeah sure you're very beautiful". That's when she start listing her and my jaw drops. So she asks where I'm from and I say I'm a farm from Alberta. Her response "Oh that explains the your face, would mind dropping me off down town?" So I drive and drop her off. Never did anything with her. So that's my experience.
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Numbers
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Posted:Apr 20, 2022 3:49 pm
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 10:45 am
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I'm not into numbers but this is getting a out of hand. I keep seeing the number 222 and . I'll see them at grocery store, bill come 2.22 cents, on new site with 222 comments, see on the clock 2:22. Then there is . Same thing buy something $., clock : at when I pick my phone and :. At night I'm in bed at :30. Tossing turning look at the clock :. Then in my car is X: and degrees out.
So weird.
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How my playlist came into being
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Posted:Apr 16, 2022 6:59 pm
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 10:45 am
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So how did my playlist come into being?
It took 3 years to organically come together. I'd hear a song, I would shazam it on my phone, put into a play list. Then I looked at that play list that there is was. It was just there. I didn't notice at first. Then I listened to it from start to end and that's when it hit. It's about her. I bet if she read this blog she wouldn't even know it's about her. But it's all about her, I don't think she on Gay Hookup Zone anymore though.
Try creating you own play list this, Shazam the song you hear that touch you. Be it from a movie, at the club, on radio, in the car next to you at the red light thumping away. Don't look at it for a few years then see what you have.
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Do you have a favorite time with someone?
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Posted:Apr 4, 2022 9:41 pm
Last Updated:Apr 6, 2022 8:55 pm
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Well there was for me, . I came over to her house around or 10 or 11 . She took me right to her bed. We had been fucking for few months like 2-3 times a week. But that night was the first night she wanted me to stay with her. Took me to bedroom, we never had sex in her bed. Every were else. The spare bedroom but that bedroom of her's in basement. Her private place. We made love in that private place and fell asleep together, my hand on her ass all night.
That night is burned into my memory. I remember how hard she get me just looking at me. She asked me fuck like a dirty . She would have to wait, I kissed her passionately, kissing my way down her body. Taking her breast in my hands and taking each nipple into my mouth . Kissed my way down her tummy and she just spread her leg feeling my hot breath on pussy. Licking you clit with light touches and put fingers in her. My tongue sliding over clit and she was moaning for my hard cock. Sucking on clit then flicking my tongue and massage her G spot where she exploded the most amazing orgasm squirting all over. While she was shaking from the orgasm I slipped vibrating cock ring on and moved between her legs. Teasing her clit again with my cock. She said "Fuck me, fuck me" and slide my larger cock into her, deep into her. She moaned then felt the vibrating on clit from cock ring. I slid out the back in fast rest the vibrator again. Again and and again I did and she exploded and gushing all over my cock. She want it from behind where slam my cock in deep and hard again and again and again. She was just shaking my cock was slick with wetness when pulled out, my cock resting on her ass hole. She pushed back my cock my cock entering her ass. I just remained so hard as she pushed back slowly. I pulled and added lube and she tried again. I let take control taking her time, she really want to feel me in her ass. Took what seemed like forever and I was so hard. She did it took my cock in her ass. She was proud, she was enjoying the pain of it. She just slid back and forth on my cock till I moaned and came.
This just felt like she let me into secret garden. I'll never forget it. Wonder if she will read this and remembers it as I do.
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Thinking about Universes
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Posted:Apr 3, 2022 9:03 pm
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 10:45 am
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Have you ever thought of that time where you had a decision, you could choose the two paths. You chose one but always wondered what the other path would have been?
I've reading a lot about string theory, quantum physics, and probability. The interesting thing is those paths are Schrodinger Cat. It's a thought experiment where you have a cat in a box with radioactive poison that has a 50% chance of killing the cat with next hour. At the end of that hour what is the state of that cat? Common sense suggests the cat is either alive or dead. With Quantum physics, at moment the box is open the cat is equal parts alive and dead at the same time. It's only when the box is opened that we see single definite state. That cat is blur of probability until the box is opened. An interesting though experiment and very real. Real as in the computer I'm posting this on wouldn't even possible if were for this.
So where this get really weird is the Wave Function. It's something we can't even really prove beyond mathematics. But what happens is the there is probability that move the measurement barrier where the wave turn in particles, what we see and reality. Thing is that probability could path A or path B for example. Back the cat, both path exist in time and we travel both at the same time with out knowing it. We see we too path A and wonder about be but we also to path B and wonder about A. Only we do this in two separate universes. A universe get created every decision small or not. Like a cell in body could become cancerous or not. Well both happen two universe form on where it does and were doesn't.
So think of this, that lover you had. You could have stayed with her or left her. In reality you both stayed with her and left her. Two universes form and both happen. Kind of mind blowing. No just think of the person and how many time you may have crossed paths. How many universes are you together in?
This is the simplest version. There's a lot math behind it that even I don't fully understand but really find it interesting.
What's more think of religion, Christianity. They say God has plan for us at the same time God gave us free will. If you think on that with out Quantum physics that's impossible. Now with Quantum physics. That's exactly what happens. The probability of you doing what God intends will always happen while you have free will to not even accept God in you life. It all happens.
This make we want to live a life with out fear as it all happens and the pain and suffering I might feel here and now is not the pain suffering I'd be feeling in different universe.
With this another thought. What happens when you die in one universe? Where does you energy go and the fact you exist in other universes. Could it be that in freak accident you die and energy goes into random other universes or get divided among all of them? Now this gets to some weird thoughts. Read about this. That sense of dejavu you get could be that. So weird.
Thinking of stuff like this just get my mind off thing I just don't want to think about anymore.
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Psychology in Relationships 1
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Posted:Mar 27, 2022 2:22 pm
Last Updated:Mar 27, 2022 2:23 pm
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I took psychology in college many years ago. I enjoy reading about still, not an expert just took Psychology 1 and Criminal Psychology out of interest.
Been looking into attachment styles. I done many quizzes from many site to determine my attachment style. Every single on come out with the Securer Attachment style. That's cool.
"In general, you feel comfortable and at ease in relationships, and donâÃÂÃÂt experience many concerns around your ability to connect with others.
Most of the time youâÃÂÃÂre good at communicating your needs and feelings, and letting others into your intimate space because youâÃÂÃÂre confident in you are."
This seems like a good thing. is for me. Where run into issue is with people that don't a Secure Attachment style.
One issue is people that the Disorganized Attachment style.
"They trouble believing that their partner will love and support them as they are. These adults expect and are waiting for the rejection, disappointment, and hurt come. In their perception, is inevitable.
This mindset can turn into a form of self-sabotage, causing the disorganized adult to end a relationship prematurely."
They say people with this attachment think the rejection is inevitable will do things to make the rejection happen with their partner they really want in their lives.
It really interesting learning about this stuff and seeing the why behind things. I've know a person that seems to fit this attachment style. It would be my best guess. That would the one my playlist is about.
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Overwhelmed by emotions of others
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Posted:Mar 27, 2022 12:17 am
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 10:45 am
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Went to hockey game. Such negative energy there. Our home team just can't win games. I'm not upset. It's very young team that has lots of potential. They made mistake but that's to be expected. But the crowd was so negative. 2nd goal making 2-0 in the third the negative was overwhelming. Leaving the game on way I had in me was negative emotions, not my emotions. I felt so drained by it all.
But it's nice to feel again even with this as the consequence. It's been far to long.
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Excited by wierdest things
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Posted:Mar 24, 2022 8:29 pm
Last Updated:Mar 24, 2022 8:31 pm
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So for the past few years I keep seeing the White hatchback driving down back alley. Mostly noticed it in the summer as I'd be on the deck. Once got to see who it was. The took off fast for a back lane. Then last week I see that car passing by at stop sign I was. I saw the driver got really good look at the driver and the car passes it's the same back end even the partial license plate was right, I took law enforcement as was trained to pick stuff like that. It was an old lover I hadn't seen over 3 years. Things didn't end well with us.
Here's the odd part. This should creep me out. But it kind excites me. Is that weird or what?
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