an update of life
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Posted:Jan 22, 2010 3:55 pm
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............thought i should maybe bring anyone on this site who still knows me and remembers me up to date with why i ha vent been around of late.
ok, lets go back to the first maybe second week in december, was taking a shower,long,warm,relaxin,soapy and there it was, i found a lump. not on my boob (thank god) on my pussy.
well i was thinkin all things, so i didnt say anything for a few days and It started to get bigger, eventually went to the docs who said i Had a cyst (was def not a cancerous lump) i had to keep an eye to see if it got bigger or what.
thankfully after a week of antibiotics i went itsef. in the mean time the doc took a load of blood tests just routine they call it
some of them didnt come back very good, this was up and that was low, so goes and sees the doc only to be told i have DIABETES, what a flipin shock.
i know there are prob loads of you ut there who have it as well but it did take me by surprise, so up till xmas had more tests and dont know what else and it got confirmed.
so thers me trying to get my head round that and xmas and then into the new year.
now, does anyone remember me telling them about my about 7 or 8 months ago, fallin out the back playin football, broke 2 bones and dislocated his ankle, then having to have surgery, well that was a long period of time till he got back on his feet, caus as anyone who knows me knows my has GULLIAN-BARRE SYNDROME which left him with a walking disability, well there he is after all that flippin trauma, just getting bk to a wee bit or normality when on the first day back at skool, when all that snow and ice was around yes you guessed it, he slipped, and landed o his leg, yes the same leg and low and behold he broke his leg
well you could have knocked me down with a feather to be honest
got him form skool, which in my opinion was negligent, but thats another story, got him to causality, i Had a gut feeling eveything was not good,
the hospital was confident that a good bit of manipulation would do the trick but sadly 2 weeks down the line we have been told hes gona need surgery t correct it,
my is gutted, im gutted for him, he will get it done next week
so theres me trying ng to cope with this diabetes and try to eat properly and not snack and no chocolate when really thats all i want to do ...lol.....
so thats you all up to date, i will keep you posted as to next week.
im only one now and again at the mo to keep my hand in so to speak maybe if my luck every changes and i get any sorta break i might get back onto here and start to have a few long overdue meets but for now i just need some friends xoxooxox
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renaming this website?
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Posted:Nov 10, 2009 2:25 pm
Last Updated:Nov 3, 2010 2:25 am
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quite appropriately this is my 65th post, and its taken me this many to realize that Gay Hookup Zone should be and could easily be renamed, ADULTS FIND SHAGS or ADULT SHAG FINDER or even ADULT FUCK FINDER
caus i have learned that in no way, shape or form does finding friends come into it.
Well in my experience on here certainly hasnt made me see anything to the contrary.
I joined in 2006 and well maybe then as being the "new girl" i was kinda taken in hand by a few of the popular ones who had had some experience on the site, which was good to know, as any friend of theres became friends of others which did become useful, u got included in chats all the time, and in blogs, and in the forums as well it was great, everyone knew you and that certainly increased your hits/views on your profile. It seemed as if i Had passed some sort of something, been accepted.
If there happened to be any sort of meets arranged, be it a quiet drink, or a meal or a proper meet then you were never left out.
This became par for the course, i was then meeting men quite regularly and was chatting/txtin many more.
Now sometimes life has a way of getting in the way and the things we like to do, have to take a back seat for a while until things improve. Or there again, things have a way of happening to others which can have a knock on effect to other people and its in these situations you then find out who your actual friends are.
I had a time when i wasnt "active" ie, i wasnt meeting with anyone
circumstances at home dictated this, also i couldnt go to a few nights out either, and then it started, not being spoken to,but being spoken about instead, not being included but being excluded
it became apparent that i had fallen out of favor and for why???
GOD ONLY KNOWS. Now i have tried to stand on my own two feet and still be one of the crowd but it doesnt work, you have to have that "approval" of the popular ones.
Its like being back at school, and as for the friend thing, well i havent found one on here who i could turn to now and say i could do with a friend, someone to talk to, caus you know what, there aint none on here. When im friends with someone i give them my all, my undivided attention, i would do anything for them i would stick up for them in any situation,i would give them my backing whatever, i would give them my last penny if i thought it would help, thats just me.
At the end of the day, i suppose then men on here are really only looking for one thing and that is the sex, shag, fcuk, Bj or whatever they dont want a woman who might just like a chat and a cuddle, to feel wanted and needed and not only for sex i may add
caus they get all the chat at home dont they.
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sadness.......................................
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Posted:Aug 8, 2009 8:41 am
Last Updated:Jan 14, 2014 6:17 am
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hi..................
its with a heavy heart that i write this blog today, you see my father-in-law passed away earlier this week.
he had cancer, and had put up a long and brave fight which ended last Sunday night, peacefully at home with all his family around him, dignified and quiet and peacefully.
this is for him.................................
Hes in a better place right now
Than hes ever been before;
All pain is gone; hes now at rest;
Nothing troubles him anymore.
It’s we who feel the burden of
Our sadness and our grief;.
We have to cry, to mourn our loss,
Before we get relief.
We know we’ll reconnect with him
At the end of each life’s road;
We’ll see his cherished face again
When we release our earthly load
rest in peace
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an update,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
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Posted:Jul 2, 2009 4:09 pm
Last Updated:Nov 3, 2010 2:27 am
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hiyas, thought i would bring you up to speed with whats going on with me,
last thursday we go to the hospital, got sons leg x-rayed and plaster came off,, woooo hoooo i hear you say, well you would have thought anyway, here comes this lady doctor. lady being the important word hear, we had never seen her before and she did nt know my case, well, i sorta began to see red, but no then i thought, go on, prove your worth, well was she useless or was she useless, i dint know how many time she asked us "when did this happen" and "how many weeks is it now" and after answering these questions constantly i began to get a bit annoyed, did she not read my sons case notes or was she to busy brown nosing the consultant. anyways, plaster is off, now has nt had any weight on his foot for the full 6 weeks and she turned and said "go on home and start to walk on it normally"
and i went, excuse me, dint you think we should see a physio before we go home at least,what for she replied, well if you had read my sons background you might just have seen he has a condition called gullian-barre syndrome, so after a lot of mumbling and muttering she said well if th ats what you want, by this time i was fit to be tied, i was so angry, i was nt wanting any special treatment for him, but what i felt he should have got.
so we see the physio and it turns out she was lovely and was very angry at the doctor as he should have seen a physio without all the commotion, my did brilliantly with her, but here it comes again, because there so strapped for physios and money and god knows what else, i dint have an appointment till 10th july so its been left to me, yet again, to be my sons pyhsio, now im not trained as a physio, i have nursing training and common sense but th ats it.
well what a week i have had, the doubts, the pressure, the stress
am i telling him the right things to do, yes, the physio gave me a few guidelines, but its gone beyond that, hes found it difficult to put weight on his foot, so what do you do, do you shout, do you encourage, i ahe certainly praised, i have foot massaged, i have been the good mum, i have been the bad mum, andi have been mum,,,,,,, so at the time of writing this he can now take a few steps with the help of his walking frame,
its taken tears and sweat from both of us but he did it.
heres me feeling i suppose a bit sorry for myself as i have no time for me, i dint know when the last time i got a shower in peace and with no other reason than to relax and put on the fake tan. i need my "ME" time and I'm missing it
so if you see me on here is for a chat and answering e-mails caus until sons goes back to skool in september im kinda of the radar for playing and meeting, but watch this space.....................
diary will be open for appointments soon......
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a nitemare of a week...............................
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Posted:May 17, 2009 3:02 pm
Last Updated:Jul 21, 2009 1:22 pm
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hello.................
anyone who knows me, knows my 2 are the most important things in my life, and again for anyone who knows me, knows that i explain to them about my sons disability,
he too a condition called GULLIAN-BARRE SYNDROME when he was 5
at the time we spent 6 months in the hospital
and after 3 yrs of treatments we knew he wld always have a walking disability, thankfully he never was affected mentally and is doing really well at skool. over the years him and i (its me who wld take him to different appoint and such like)have been through a lot with different things, so ur reading this and saying well yeah, so your point is ............................
well, on Tuesday nite he was out playing footie with his daddy in the back garden and fell, and as he fell he heard a crack.
yup.... something broke............ called 999 ans eventually go him to the ulster, when the x-rayed his foot they discovered he had broken 2 bones horizontally and dislocated his ankle......
OMGFG i thought please not him not his feet and ankles but seeing the x-rays it was very clear to see,. so what did they do , yup they admitted him and at 3 that morning we got a bed,
wednesday he went to theater ans had some bone removed and wires and screws put in, he is now slowly recovering.
we got home friday nite, i stayed with him all the time,
now he is home, its hazardous and hard work and will be for the for seeable future.
now your gona ask what age he is, hes 15 a big lad if u were to see him, who has been through more in his young life than most adults ever experience, hes brave, hes strong, ans hes my
and i will do whatever i can when ever i can to be there and to help him.
since this has all happened i have been having some txts, now the majority of some people who contacted me where ok abut it all and are showing signs of understanding, but there are 1 or 2 who are being absolute tossers and to them im saying piss off
so if im not on as often as i have been recently then thats the reasons why........................
be good to each other .............life is too short xoxox
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thought this might happen...........................
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Posted:Apr 28, 2009 6:53 am
Last Updated:May 17, 2009 2:39 pm
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..... well here i am writing to let you all know that i have had no responce about saturday night.
except for 3 people, so thank you to them but its with a heavy heart that i have to tell you that saturday is not going to happen
no get together, nothing.
so if by some chance you have mentioned to anyone you can pass the message on that there wont be anyone going out on saturday night.
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lets make it a good one..............
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Posted:Apr 19, 2009 10:48 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2009 6:47 am
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hiya to everyone, its coming round to that time of year again when its my birthday, doesnt seem like a year since the last one i hear you say, but yes, it is, so im looking to have a get together, for old and new friends alike. It has been so long since there has been a night out in belfast, so, im asking you now for your discretion and willingingness to help me and everyone else who comes along to have a brilliant night.
i do not intend to broadcast this in the chatroom what so ever, so if you have any questions then you can leave a message on my blog and i will get back to you. venue details will only be given to genuine people who let me know that they are going to come. lets work on this together and make it a might to rembember for all the good reasons.
i look forward to hearing from you.
i am intending it to be on SATURDAY 2ND of MAY.
WARNING: Any institution using this site or any of its associated sites for study or projects - You do not have my permission to use any of my blogs or pictures in any way, shape or forum, both current or future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications. It is recommended that other members post a similar notice as well.
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to be honest................................................
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Posted:Mar 11, 2009 4:57 am
Last Updated:Mar 17, 2009 9:12 am
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as some of you know i sorta haven't been on much recently due to circumstances at home (me and hubbie are fine)
and also a few of you will have noticed (guys in particular) that i haven't had a meet in ages.
may i just add here it certainly is not for the lack of offers as i have and still am getting offers,
i am getting back to coming on and reading up on blogs and chatting in the chat room which i enjoy, the banter can be good at times, and for people to say hiya, ltnc, makes me feel good.
like i said, i haven't had a meet or played in a while and well for now thats causing me a few wee problems, i know the old saying if you fall off your bike get straight back on, but thats the thing, the longer I'm not meeting the harder I'm finding it to.
(stupid, i know)
I'm not in the best of places at the moment, I'm struggling with myself in every which way you can think off, but recently got told i was a "cock tease",and a "time waster", oh and this is one i hear often, "why are you on a sex site if your not meeting anyone", well thats up to me if i am on this site or not.
everything is at a low, mind, body soul, esteem, confidence.
its a vicious circle to be honest, if i had the confidence i would meet which would give me confidence, but cause i dint have the confidence I'm not meeting.
so there you have it it, I'm sure some will read this and say "fuck away off" give yourself a shake and get up off ur fat arse and do something about it, (easier said than done, trust me)
but I'm hoping my friends and some of you guys will maybe understand a bit for now
got to reading some poems and found this one, and I'm going to read it every morning....................................
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL
Things aren't really
as bad as they seem
Listen to me,
I'm your self-esteem
You're not really ugly
and you're not over weight
Think of your good points
your complexion is great!
You have a great sense of humor
and are as smart as can be
Who cares if you don't
wear a perfect size 3
You're thoughtful and caring
your actions will show
The heart is full of love,
that I already know
Don't listen to those
who throw insults your way
just smile and nod
and think of this day
I'm saying it now,
and I'll say it again
how you look doesn't matter
True beauty lies within
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first of the year for me..................
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Posted:Feb 7, 2009 4:49 pm
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2009 12:59 pm
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many of you have already posted on your blogs and left comments for others well this is my first posting this year.
i haven't been on line for a while due to a couple of things, i had suffered a bad bout of depression and also my internet was down. Well as u can see my internet is back up and running and i feel now, i can sit and read and converse with people, something that i haven't been able to do for a while.
i felt a bit of a thrill as i brought up the site, put in my password and had a look around, thinking that, maybe i had missed something or there was a meet arranged, but no, not a thing.
in fact I'm sure most of my so called friends didn't even realize that i hadn't been on line, there were one or two who did keep in touch (you know who you are)which helped me realize that there was life still outside.
even checking my e-mails i thought there might have been an odd one saying "where the hell are you", but even that was too much to expect.
so i do hope your all well and your keeping warm in this cold spell were having, and you never know, maybe we will catch up soon.
STRANGER THINGS HAVE HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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its time for a rant...................................................
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Posted:Nov 17, 2008 2:47 pm
Last Updated:Nov 26, 2008 1:12 pm
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 ........yep its that time, for a rant, you know, letting off some steam.
you see i have been on this site now for two and a half yrs and in that time i have met some very nice people, guys and girls and you all know who you are, but there are jsut sometimes that you think you know a person and they make you go GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
again when i started on Gay Hookup Zone, i was trying my damdest to plese all of the people all of the time, and well, i began to see that i could be choosy and pick who i wanted to meet, this you may say is sensible,.......
so here comes the senario, you view a profile, you think, mmmmmm looks nice, they wink at you, you wink at them, then the emails
then you exchange mobile numbers and then the contact starts and your thinking happy days,, now this is where i begin to rant,
should you go all the way the first time you meet?
should you jsut meet for coffee/lunch/drinks?
if you do go all they are you leaving yourself open to be called all the godforsakeen names under the sun, IE, slapper, tatr, or even ?
And if you did go for coffee/lunch/drinks are you leaving yourselve open, yet agian, for being called all the godforsaken names under the sun IE, friggid, tease, cock teaser?
As well as, when you met the person, they said they would be n touch, and yes they were, and you both were trying to arrange another meet and it turns out that you are actually doing something, then that can be cast up to you as, "your always busy"
Then you get reminded "this is a sex site"
Excuse me, but am i expected to sit at home and wait for the fone to ring, asking if im free for a shag/meet or wahtever?
ohhhhhhhhhh, grrrrrrrrrrrrrr, this makes me so angry
mmmm feel a tad better now
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if,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
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Posted:Nov 6, 2008 5:35 am
Last Updated:Nov 27, 2008 5:03 am
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if you could ...........would you?
if you did...............was it worth it?
if you got the chance....... would you do it again?
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slow dance.......................
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Posted:Oct 9, 2008 3:02 am
Last Updated:Nov 9, 2008 2:37 pm
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S L O W D A N C E
Have you ever watched
on a merry-go-round
Or listened to the rain
slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music won't last
Do you run through each day on the fly
When you ask "How are you?"
do you hear the reply?
When the day is done,
do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music won't last
Ever told your ,
We'll do it tomorrow
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
'Cause you never had time
to call and say "Hi"?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music won't last
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away...
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
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affairs and lovers?
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Posted:Sep 23, 2008 2:59 am
Last Updated:Oct 2, 2008 1:58 pm
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.....i have been thinking.......oh no i hear you say
how would you define an "affair"
Does having an affair mean......ur dating a married man?
are there feelings involved?.....communication?
What about a lover?......... is a lover different from a fuck-buddy..........in what way?....how do you see it?
I was once very fortunate to meet a wonderful man, who i feel became my lover, you see we developed feelings for one another and it was amazing yes,yes, i hear you say , but ur hubbie, oh he knew all about him ,but when i was with him, well nothing else mattered, did it. Was this an affair? I think so.
If it was, its been the only one, as i haven't been as close with another man since, he had to go to england for the sake of his business, why am i telling you this cause i got a txt from him this morning, totally out of the blue, it was our "anniversary " today we would have known each other 4 yrs,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
hes gone from my life now and i miss him but i understand why he had to go.
so tell me this blogger friends, how do u define affairs and lovers?
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